LoudthiNker’s plaCe to Tell peoPle of HeR tHouGhts

1.What do you think of the most when
you are alone?
- I would think about my current problems,weighing the cost and benefit of my next decisions..ataupun.."hari ni ader buat jahat tak?"(uuuuuu…kedengaran sgtla baik sayer ini…hehe,but all i do is think and think,i never trust my judgement,i trust my heart)

2. When it is a rainy night, what do
you do most of the time?
- tgk movie while baring atas katil empuk and berbungkus dlm slimut..and do things in the rain that ppl wouldn’t notice because of the rain

3. When was the last time you give
roses to and for who?
- to Kak Qayya tapi kongsi ngan Maznah la tapi…hehe..sbb graduation..

4. What do you do when you see a full
moon?
- "amek gambar dier..ngahahaha"

5. Would you rather swim in the lake
or dive in the ocean?
- doesn’t matter

6. What would be the best partner of a
good cup of coffee?
- a good company..and biskut cap ping pong..bleh borak2..bleh cicah..ngehngehngeh..

7. If you were to ask yourself a
question now, what would it be?
- aper ekk?

8. If certain things in your life
fall apart, what will you do?
- i’ll get depressed..huhu..ngehehehe…coz usually yg fall apart tu myself..haha..kalo bender lain nak fall apart..i gam dier balek..gam dier pakai gam gajah..i got other ppl to fix me..heh..

9. What was the hardest decision you
made in your life so far?
- there is never a hard decision,the hard part comes later..the courage and perseverance you need to stick to it….sound smart huh!..i make decisions in my life since i can talk,my parent realized i’m too stubborn to listen to them so they let me..every decision about something you care about is hard..and the hardest involve the one you care about the most…another smart things said here..My God,i’m smart..The decision that has been made is never the hardest,the next one will..so ask me when i have died,i’ll tell you the last decision i made..the hardest decision so far ehh…hmm..i don’t think it is worth mentioning anymore,coz as i look back now..its not that hard to choose eternal happiness than a fickle human emotion…

10. When your friends forget you, what
will you do?
- my best friends never forget me..hehe..coz i sort of call and check on them paling kurang once a week..ngahahaha..yang biaser2 pun,kalo derang luper pun,sooner or later derang mesti ingat punyer..i’m such an unforgettable experience…siryes,tak cayer ask them..nad a friend who forget me..hmmm i couldnt be bother by them,coz they couldnt be bother about remembering me..hehe..i’m such a smart ass.

11. Do you talk to yourself?
- always,i am talking to myself,answering this survey..

12. Is there anything that you are
craving for right now?
- nothing kot…oh yeah,kalo craving nak cepuk2 budak yg degil,tak paham situasi pastu degil jugak..bleh tak craving yg tu…

13. Single or taken?
- taken..ngeh..senang citer..

14.Ever cried for something stupid?
- no

15. Do you like anime?
- naruto jer

16. How about Japanese music?
- lagu2 dari sountrack citer jepun yg aku tgk or naruto..mostly from naruto la..

17. What music are you into, anyway?
- Keane-Lifehouse-and sedikit oldies

18. Do you have a malicious mind?
- yep

19. First thing you do after watching
a movie.
- mengeliat..(haha..baru perasan biler jawab survey nih)

20. Do you wash the dishes in your
house?
- yep..fine..after failing to bully my younger sisters to do it…happy now..

21. Can you last two days without a
bath?
- tak mungkin..hahaha..sejuk cemaner pon mesti mandi…tak tau kenapa..

22. Most common words in your
classroom.
- kalo masa kat Jasin..’poyo’ la kot..

23. The last lie you told your parents?
- "i’m ok,siryes,tak cayer amek la kapak belah la dada.."

26. Are you brand conscious?
- kasut shj..

27. Ever felt in-love?
- yep..why with the past tense..i’m in love now..

28. Who do you miss right now?
- shiro..

29. Watched any good movies lately?
- yes

30. Is it in you to kill someone?
- no,i guess..tapi kemahuan tuh still membara..

31. Daydream a lot?
- nope

32. Happy with your life?
- so-so

33. You’d rather lose your mobile
- no…no…i rather not lose anything…

ye la..ye la..dah ngaku salah dah ni..huhu..ampun la..
tapi tak pernah pun kater u nih rude ke haper…tak pernah..tapi you memang suker hangin2 la(adekah kenyataan ini memburukkan keadaan lagi)..huhu..ok,sayer ngaku salah..guilty as charged..
thanks sbb masih melawat sini..

semalam dah terjatuh dah kat dlm dewan pekse..tersadung kaki sendiri..
ada 2 tanda selalunya biler it happens…
1.i want something so badly tapi tak dapat
2.buat salah ngan org dan raser guilty

so i have embarrassed myself in front of the whole class..what more should i do before you forgive me?

the last time i jatuh in public masa kat escalator randwick plaza tuh..uhuhu…

hope you’ll find in time to forgive me..

huhu..

p/s:oh yer..keputusan yg telah lama dibuat tu maseh valid lagi sampai sekarang..tekad saya masih kuat..Jangan salah anggap..just nak mintak maaf jer..itu jer..tader niat yg lebeh2..

huhu..suka2 menjadi duka..biler hati riang gembira..kita pun reckless..so kita buat bender2 bodoh yg menyinggung perasaaan orang…huhu..
Saya mintak maaf.
Bukan sbb nak exam..tapi sbb saya salah dan saya tak tau,esok pagi sempat nak mintak maaf.
I didn’t expect a forgiveness,i just thought that it will calm me down asking for forgiveness and admitting fault.and yeah.i felt better.

MAAFKAN SAYA.

Jangan kau hinakan kesakitan aku dengan menyamakannya dengan kegilaan pura-pura yang kau kutip dari mereka yang telah lupa.

Jangan sekali kali kau hinakan setiap airmata yang aku tumpahkan setiap waktu untuk aku kamu dan Dia.

Jangan sekali-kali kau hinakan kekasih hatiku dengan mensia-siakan usianya.

Kerana aku tidak mampu membawa kau bersama,maka jalan itu harus kau jejaki seorang.

You are stronger than you think.

Seperti bese,aku nih cepat terpengaruh dgn adegan dlm movie..ahha..aritu teringin nak lari dalam hujan pastu jatuh dlm lecak(saje2 supaya lebeh sadis..dlm kepala aku la)..and nangis sekuat2 hati..nak meraung cam budak2 tak dapat eskrem…sbb aku raser tuh jer yg dapat nak menggambarkan apa yg dok bergelora di dalam dada..aichewahhh…ngahahaha…

tapi dlm beberapa hari nih…aku raser cam nak lari2 dlm keadaan gembire,mabuk keriangan…dlm hujan gak,tapi yg mcm dlm citer hindustan la biler derang nyanyi2 lagu untuk cukupkan tujuh padang bola tu…haha..

pastu ader siket raser cam Frodo yg lega,akhirnya cincin sakti dah dimusnahkan..(ahaha..aku merepek lagi..)..tapi entahlah..org tua2 kata jgn gembire-gembire sgt..nnt berduka..aku cam dapat raser nnt selang baper hari mesti ader lagi bender2 yg tak best nak happen..-sigh-..bender yg lagi tak best dari sebelumnya…haha…

pastu korang kene plak bacer aku tulis bender sedih la depressed la,kene dgr lagu yg sedeh2 lagi..haha..
anyway..right now,dlm kepala aku ader 3 lagu yg buatkan aku senyum2 jer beberapa hari nih..

1.Tak mengapa by A Rahman Hassan(bukan sajer 2-3 hari nih,tapi setiap kali pon…so beyond me)
2.Unwritten by Natasha Beddingfield
3.Leaving so soon by Keane

waiting for the next storm.

DO YOU SNORE?:
= yes…kalo penat..
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LOVER OR A FIGHTER?:
= lover who fight alot..hahaha..
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WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR?:
= mati dlm keadaan melakukan dosa besar..(bunyi cam baek giler)
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AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?:
= yes..sumer lego..aku yg punya..hahaha..ehh bukan..ahmad albab yg punya…
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WHAT DO YOU THINK OF “REALITY TV”?:
= sampah
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DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?:
= biler air dah habes..pastu hint2 nak air lagi..
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WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?:
= no..coz hmm..u can ask my mum la..then nnt kene dgr dier citer psl one of my neighbour mengata i sehingga menimbulkan kejengkelan dihati my mum..tup2..anak dier lagi tak comel dari i..but kecomelan i grows with time..ahaks..
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HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?:
= questionable…in a sense evrybody will ask.."boipren mana,saper,bila dan sebagainya"
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WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?:
= black
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DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?:
= most of the time..
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HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?:
= nope
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ANY SECRET TALENTS?:
= hmmm…
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WHAT’S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?:
= hmmm…
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HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?:
= yes
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HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE “DONNIE
DARKO”?:
= ha?
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DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?:
= when it get too hot or sunny..i would quitely say to myself.."lapisan ozon sudah menipis"
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HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO
THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?:
= ha?
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CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?:
= nope
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HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?:
= yep
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ARE SPEEDO’S HOT?:
= speedo??
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WHAT’S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?:
= kalo dah terpaksa sbb nak mencari rejeki yg halal..ok la kot..nak maen2..lempang jer dua tiga kali..
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IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?:
= yes..
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DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?:
= i admire my hadwriting..My God,my handwritings is very nice..huhu
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WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?:
= liers
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WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, “I
LOVE YOU”:
= entah..
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IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?:
= tupac??
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DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?:
= almost…haha..masa wedding kak own..tak tau apsal sebak..mcm la kak own tu anak aku..ngahaha..
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HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:
= half boiled,half friend
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ARE BLONDES DUMB?:
= why??
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WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?:
= usually…hmm..i never bother to find it..
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WHAT TIME IS IT?:
= 252am
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DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?:
= yes
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IS MCDONALD’S DISGUSTING?:
= how could you say such thing..uhuk2
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WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A
CAR?:
= hmmm..
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DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?:
= one after the other
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IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?:
= don’t bother
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ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?:
= nope..i’m afraid of what’s in the dark that i cannot see..hehe..
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WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?:
= max brenner’s frappe and yeah..Gloria Jean ice choc
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CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?:
= crunchy
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HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?:
= no
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HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR
TEETH TODAY?:
= twice
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IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?:
= yep..ngeh~
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ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?:
= now?? no..
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HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?:
= yep..dekat je la tapi..
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WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?:
= dark brown
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WHEN’S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
= takyah tau la
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DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?:
= liking it now..
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WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?:
= birds?
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ARE YOU PSYCHIC?:
= nope
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HAVE YOU READ “CATCHER IN THE RYE”?:
= no
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DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?:
= no
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CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?:
= no
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DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?:
= depends
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DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH?:
= yes,when i read something so funny..i snort first..then continue to laugh
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DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?:
= no
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IS A DOG A MAN’S BEST FRIEND?:
= that man is a lonely man
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YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?:
= ader sbb membolehkan cerai..
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DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A
FRIENDSTER?:
= entah..
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WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?:
= megi tomyam
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DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?:
= no
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DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?:
= i like a lot of ppl..not just someone..
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WHAT’S THE MOST ANNOYING TV
COMMERCIAL?:
= kalo kat oz,iklan murahan selepas pukul 12.
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DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?:
= no
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FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?:
= K.E.A.N.E
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Leaving So Soon lyrics

If i can do this perfectly without any flaw whatsoever,this test was never meant for me.
I am Me.I make mistakes.

When it really matters,i will never lie.
I am Me.I need to be true to myself

When i need to apologize i will say i’m sorry
I am Me.I let go of things when i apologize

When i fell in love,it will be with all my heart.i didn’t hold back.I will not be afraid.
I am Me.I am that helpless when it comes to love.

When i say "saya sayang kamu"(the whole sentence,not just sayang..or whatever) i will be bound by that personally.And i will act the most appropriate thing i can think of untuk menunaikan hak keatas kata-kata saya.
I am Me.I live by my rules.

I am Me.You can never change who I am without me being in control of the change.I am Me.Yes,i will change for you,but it is my decision.Mine.I am Me.I am stubborn.

But sometimes,i am weak,i will cry alot and whine.I am Me.

When things get so out of hand and i was being pushed so hard till i can’t take it any longer and start to be heartless.It start to hurt  me so much.I am losing myself.Coz i am me.Who i am without my whole heart in doing something?I am Me.I wear my heart proudly.I am Me.

I realized it just now.I am Me.Marlina do things with her whole heart.I am Me.

me dun like writing about other ppl..
i have the need to be right all the time..i know that im right about the things that i know i am right but being right all the times makes me wonder when can i be wrong once..so i tend to distrust my own judgement sometimes..and learn later that i am right in the first place..haha..

so those things that nobody can say that i am wrong is all about myself..haha..so i wrote about myself..

do you want to read stuff i wrote about other people..nah,im to introvert to have done so..nah..i’m too damn obsess with my need to be right..haha..ask those who knew me well,of how ‘ketegaq’ i am about things that i think and know is right…

maybe i’ll try to write about other ppl..ppl that i know,ppl that i love,ppl that i hate but still love dearly,or ppl i didn’t bother to..(ahh why bother telling stories about them..)..

let me choose one name of my significant others..

Kakak Ipar saya yg saya sayangi
I can say she like the medium of me and my brother talking to each other again..haha..She’s very sweet la..dunno how could she end up with my bro,its so beyond me..haha..nah..haha..my bro is a good bro,seriously,if you ask my younger siblings(i’m the second),who would they go for if they have problem,they will unanimously chose my bro..he has this comforting aura around him and i’m sure his friends realised this too.as for me,suprisingly for  those who didn’t know me,i’m the silent type when it comes to staying at home..i rarely chat with my family members,but do so,when i feel the need to counter my fathers idea or  comment(kutuk)story line of malay drama or movie,or those singing competition’s contestants(which i believe,can’t sing better than me)..or melayan my lil bro recent action in school such as "kak ina,tadi kan aku ponteng perhimpunan"..
oh wait,hehe..i was intending to tell you guys about my kakak ipar kan..haha..off track like usuall..and i end up telling ppl things about me again..haha..
My kakak ipar has Minang blood la and she’s really humble eventhough she’s like so pandai and all during her school days and uni days..she got to wear that Purple thingy during her graduation..how cool is that..
when she gave birth to my first nephew,she’s the one smsing me here in Sydney about it,none of my other family members actually thoughts of doing that..huhu..so kasihan..i’ve told them,i won’t bring any souvenirs for them when i flew home this dec,only for my kakak and Ahmad Dhani bin Amir..haha..serve them rights ngahaha(gelak jahat)
Usually i will call her to tell my bro i need him to pick me up from the train station..hehe..and during my summer’s holiday earlier this year,we went shopping or what we called "Goyang-goyang-baju-tapi-tak-beli trip" together like few times and i enjoy it..haha..
i think even if i get married later,my husband wouldn’t be as much loved as we all love her..haha..so i must get a very secure guy or equally lovable..or else problem maa..haha..
Kak Rohaya,thanks for coming into our life and bring us closer together..hehe
Love you..